Sarah Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 18: Point Of No Return

I’m already depressed from the last episode, so I guess it can’t get any worse.

Also, this title makes me think of Phantom of the Opera. Now I’m thinking about Dean as Christine and Michael as the Phantom, specifically the part where they’re singing “Past the Point of No Return” in Don Juan, just before the theater burns down and the Phantom takes Christine into his lair.

To clarify, yes, Dean is wearing that frilly Spanish dress in my imagination. It’s making me feel better. So sue me.

Adam? I kind of figured Zachariah would be there, but Adam? What the hell?

So Zachariah got fired? “Fired.” It shouldn’t be funny that Stuart and the bartender are dying and have their eyes fried out and stuff. But it is. I’m morbid.

Dean’s putting all of his things in a box. He’s going to send it to Bobby’s. Oh, dear Jeebus. Sam...you are my hero. I don’t even care about anything after this moment. I’m just glad Sam is here.

I can hear the quaver in Dean’s voice. Cas, you are awesome. Thank you for zapping Dean to Bobby’s.

“Because I promised you I wouldn’t give up.” Thank you, Bobby. Thank you!

Oh, Cas, bby! I want you to be okay. What is going on? Woah, what the crap? Lucifer’s buddies? Or...wait, is that the demon who was with Famine? Cas, bby, you are fucking awesome. Look at you go.

Adam. You’re back. You crawled out of the ground like Dean did, but not quite so awesomely. Um, angels warned Adam about Sam and Dean. And “WHERE THE HELL IS ZACHARIAH?!” WHAT THE CRAPSHIT!

They told Adam that he was Michael’s sword? What now?! Ugh, this is ridiculous. “You know what? Blow me, Cas.” Cas wants to, and you want him to, so stop being facetious.

I don’t really like Adam very much...yeah...no, not really at all. I love that Sam’s trying to reach out, but it’s just not realistic. Adam’s not the same Adam they thought was Adam.

“Oh, Cas, not for nothing, but the last person who looked at me like that, I got laid.” TROLOLOLOL DESTIEL IS CANON LOOK AT THAT EYEFUCKING!

I’m sad that Dean is so tired, but I know exactly how that feels. I wish things could be back to how they were in Season 1, when they weren’t bad, and they didn’t start the Apocalypse, and they didn’t fight except to call each other Bitch and Jerk, and when they were saving people, hunting things, the family business.

“Sam, I don’t believe.” “In what?” “In you.” Oh, Dean. Dean, bby. That’s your brother.

I just want everything to be happy again. Dean, you just zapped Cas. What are you thinking? CLEARLY, YOU ARE NOT THINKING AT ALL!

I hate Zachariah. I hate him with all the power of a thousand fiery suns.

Cas, you are perfect. Except that you’re beating Dean up. “I rebelled for this? So that you could surrender to them? I gave everything for you, and this is what you give to me?

“Confetti, it’s a PARADE!” I’ve seen the gag reels too many times. Totally worth it, though. But anyway. This is not so good. Cas beat Dean up (even though he needed it), and Adam was just a lure. BITCHES AND HOES I WILL CURBSTOMP ZACHARIAH!

That shot of Adam coughing up blood...he looked JUST like Dean. “Word to the wise. Don’t piss off the nerd angels.” I smirked. It’s perfect.

“No you won’t.” Sam, I love that you’re so confident in your brother.

“I don’t get it, Sam. Why are you doing this?” “Because you’re still my big brother.”

Abandoned muffler building. Very sneaky, angels.

Oh, Cas, look at you without your tie. So seductive.

This doesn’t seem very good, though. There are a lot of angels and only one Cas. And he dropped the sword? WHAT THE FUCK HE HAD A SIGIL ON HIS CHEST HE’S A FUCKING BEAST WHAT THE FUCK I AM SO IN AMAZE I CAN’T EVEN AND HE LEFT THE ANGEL KILLING KNIFE FOR DEAN HE DOES HAVE FAITH IN HIM!

Dean is so pretty. This is not the time to be dazzled by his good looks, but shit, I can’t help it. His eyes...Ugh, his EYES ARE BEAUTIFUL! Oh, look at the pain in Sam and Dean’s faces. Just look at it. Dean, bby, you’re perfect. DEAN, YOU PERFECT MAN, YOU! That tiny smile and the wink.

“Michael can’t have me, until he disintegrates you. I said, before Michael gets one piece of this sweet ass, he has to turn you into a piece of charcoal.” Dean, can I have a piece of your sweet ass? That sounds awkward, but you know what I mean.

Dean, you killed Zachariah yourself. You perfect man. Oh, shit, Adam’s trapped inside the room with Michael. He’s going to be the vessel accidentally. Shit. Not good.

Dean didn’t want to let Sam down. They are perfect. If I start to quote Dean’s moving speeches, I’ll cry. But I listened to every word, and I love Dean. “So screw destiny, right in the face.” Perfect.

I live a Castiel the motherfucking angel Appreciation Life. I live a Dean Appreciation Life.

Liz Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 18: Point of No Return (SPOILER BLOG)

Adam’s back. Adam’s back. Damn it. Isn’t this the episode Cas beats up Dean? I’m so ready for the homoerotic shoving up against brick walls and such.

As much as I hate Zachariah, he does amuse me. What an assbutt (and yes, that is my favorite word). Angels are such dicks.

DEAN. I WILL ACTUALLY CUT YOU. WHAT ON EARTH DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING. I don’t know why I’m acting like this is news to me. I’ve seen this before. I know what happens. Doesn’t make it any easier, clearly.

YES. CASTIEL IS SO MAD. He’s like, “I may love you, Dean, but I do not love your attitude.”

Bobby: What the hell happened to you?
Dean: Reality happened.

This reminds me of what Future!Cas says to Dean in “The End”. Life happens. Reality catches up with all of us eventually.

Bobby: You can’t give up, son.
Dean: You are not my father.

SHIT. SHIT. BOBBY’S FACE JUST... FALLS. OH DEAR GOD DEAN WHY.

“That’s the round I mean to put through my skull. Every morning I look at it. I think, ‘Maybe today’s the day I flip the lights out’. But I don’t do it. I never do it. You know why? Because I promised you I wouldn’t give up!”

Ouch, poor baby Castiel’s head hurts. The angels are communicating with him...

Castiel may be a little baby angel foot solider, but he is tough. And not easy to kill. He will take your ass down if you try to sneak up on him. DON’T. MESS. WITH. CAS.

SOMEBODY GRIPPED ADAM TIGHT AND RAISED HIM FROM PERDITION OMG. Those fucking angels. Why are they so fucking irritating?

I also like Adam a lot more when he was a ghoul. He was nice. The real Adam is sassy and kind of an asshole.

Castiel: Maybe they’re desperate. Maybe they wrongly assumed Dean would be brave enough to withstand them.
Dean: All right, you know what? Blow me, Cas.

THIS. OMG THIS. I’m not even mad that they’re sniping at each other because it’s just so old married couple of them. And Dean’s like, “Blow me, Cas” and Castiel is like, “Wait. Here? Right now? In front of your brothers?”

Sam: There’s another way.
Adam: Great. What is it?
Dean: Well, we’re working on the power of love.

LOL. They are all so sassy. The way Dean says, “Mmm, not good” just makes me laugh.

UGH. ADAM. I know you’re bitter because you and your mom were killed by ghouls but that is NOT EXCUSE TO BE AN ASSHOLE TO YOUR BROTHERS. Why do people like Adam? I just do not care about him at all. He’s so mean. He just assumes that he had such a terrible life and that Sam and Dean were like, hogging their dad, when in actuality, their childhood was way more fucked up than his.

“Well, Cas, not for nothing, but the last person who looked at me like that... I got laid.”

WHAT THE HELL ARE THESE LINES SUPPOSED TO MEAN. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SHIP ANYTHING BESIDES DEAN/CASTIEL. HE FUCKING WINKS AT HIM. LIKE... WHAT.

There! Dean says it again! He’s tired! He has literally been tired for two years.

Sam: Well, do you think maybe you could take a half second and stop trying to sacrifice yourself for a change? Maybe we could actually stick together?
Dean: I don’t think so.
Sam: Why not? Dean, seriously, tell me, I want to know.
Dean: I just... I don’t believe.
Sam: In what?
Dean: In you.

This breaks my heart. Dean is exhausted and he doesn’t trust his brother. He’s right: Sam is angry and self-righteous and easily corrupted by demonic power. But Sam is trying. He’s trying so hard. And he’s sick of Dean being such a goddamn martyr. JUST STOP IT.

“Don’t say that to me. Not you, of all people.” HE SAYS THIS IN SEASON ONE. HOLY SHIT KRIPKE YOU’RE A GODDAM GENIUS. Sam, baby, let me hold you.

I honestly believe that Castiel saw how broken up Sam was and knew that Dean needed someone to talk to. So he went down to the panic room to comfort him. And then when Dean didn’t answer he got really worried and scared that something had happened. AND THEN DEAN BANISHED HIM. Abusive relationship. Now Castiel is going to respond in turn and BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU, DEAN.

They call Heaven “Oz”. This interests me. The boys are from Kansas. I can’t help but feel like there is a large Wizard of Oz arch throughout this entire series.

“You know Sam and Dean Winchester are psychotically, irrationally, erotically codependent on each other.” The truth of this statement... it’s ridiculous.

Zachariah, there is only one word for you: DICK. YOU’RE A DICK. YOU’RE A DICK. YOU’RE A DICK.

YES YES THE CASTIEL BEATING UP DEAN SCENE OMG ALL THE HOMOEROTICISM. Castiel is pushing Dean up against a wall. He is so close to his face.

“I rebelled for this! So that you could surrender to them! I gave everything for you! And this is what you give me?” FUCK CASTIEL. JESUS CHRIST. HE IS READY TO KILL DEAN. But in the end, his love wins out and he stops. He uncurls his fist. He takes him home.

This moment lost its severity when the gag reel was released. Now all I can think of is, “Confetti! It’s a parade!”

Sam: What the hell happened to him?
Castiel: Me.

Cas and Dean just carry each other around all the time. It’s adorable.

Poor Adam. He’s kind of an ass, but he doesn’t deserve to be manipulated by angels. He doesn’t deserve any of this shit. They’re using him as bait. That blows.

“Word to the wise. Don’t piss off the nerd angels.” I love their relationship.

Dean: Isn’t that a bad idea?
Sam: Cas and Bobby think so. I’m not so sure.
Dean: Well, they’re right. Because either it’s a trap to get me there to make me say yes, or it’s not a trap and I’m gonna say yes anyway. And I will. I’ll do it. Fair warning.
Sam: No you won’t. When push shoves, you’ll make the right call.

Sam is wonderful right now. He knows that Dean doesn’t have faith in him, and it hurts him to his core, but he’s not retaliating like a child. He’s showing faith in Dean. He’s trying to show him that he believes in him. He’s doing the right thing. SAM LET ME LOVE YOU I’M SORRY FOR ALL THE MEAN THINGS I SAID ABOUT YOU BB.

Dean: Isn’t that suicide?
Castiel: Maybe it is. But then I won’t have to watch you fail. I’m sorry, Dean. I don’t have the same faith in you that Sam does.

It’s weird seeing Castiel remove a piece of clothing. Since the moment we meet him, he never even touches his tie or his trenchcoat, but now he knows how to take it off. He’s falling slowly. Also, does Cas do that to himself? He’s cut off from Heaven; he can feel pain. I don’t think he would be able to do it by himself; I think he needed Sam and Dean’s help to do it. And as much as he and Dean are clearly going through a rough patch right now, I think he would have Dean do it.

YES. THE DEAN WINK. BELIEVE IN HIM SAM. BELIEVE IN HIM. Sam looked so heartbroken when he thought that Dean had given up (honestly, can I blame Dean? Adam and Sam were hemorrhaging on the floor.) but HE DIDN’T. IT WAS A TRICK. DEAN IS FUCKING SLY. DON’T MESS WITH HIM.

Poor Adam. Like I said, I may not like the guy too much, but nobody deserves to have an angel ride their ass.

Sam: So, what changed your mind?
Dean: Honestly? The damnedest thing. I mean, the world’s ending, the walls are coming down on us, I look over to you and all I could think about is, ‘The stupid son-of-a-bitch brought me here’. I just didn’t want to let you down.
Sam: You didn’t.

#WBA #WBA #WBA #WBA #WBA #WBA THIS IS A BEAUTIFUL IMPALA BROTHER MOMENT.

“If you’re grown up enough to find faith in me, the least I can do is return the favor. So screw destiny, right in the face. I say we take the fight to them and do it our way.”

PARALLEL LINE: NO REST FOR THE WICKED-- “No, we stop being martyrs! Man, we stop spreading it for these demons. We take this knife and we go after Lillith our way, the way Dad taught us to. And if we go down, then... we go down swinging. What do you think?”’

DO IT THE WINCHESTER WAY. ALWAYS THE ANSWER.

Sarah Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 17: 99 Problems

But a bitch ain’t one, right?

Lisa...I just like...growled that at my TV screen. Apparently I don’t like her very much...

I’m gonna go ahead and guess demons? HOLY SHIT! That was a large truck and some interesting people. “Be careful, it’s dangerous out there.” TROLOLOL

I think the thing about tragedies is that it makes you realize the things you want out of your life, and that’s why there are so many weddings and stuff like that. I have to be honest, though. This is pretty nuts. All the witnesses in the aisles are holding guns. That’s terrifying. Even the priest has a thigh holster.

Is she a prophet? Or...okayyyy...she just talks to the angels. Welp...all right. Yep, she’s a prophet. Called it. Nice. I win.

“I don’t understand. Why do you want me to say my name?” HOLY DEAR JEEBUS! CASTIEL, BBY, YOU ARE PERFECT!

“You know me. Downright pious.” *giggles* Oh, Dean. What’s up with those two guys? Something’s not right with them. Paul and Rob. They aren’t even pretending. Paul is drinking from a flask.

The music from this raid scene is awesome, though. Dean, Sam, you are badass. You are a perfect team. Never separate again. Ugh, did you see that move? Sam tossed the knife, Dean pulled it out of the dead demon, and stabbed another guy. FUCKING AWESOME! Also, their clink of beer. Awesome.

Except shit, Dylan got killed. BITCHES AND HOES I AM PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW THIS SUCKS MONKEY TITS!

“You know, this is your fault.” Ugh, of all people, Dean shouldn’t have to hear that. He already feels like crap.

Dylan’s coming back? UGH THIS IS SO RADICAL I CAN’T EVEN! This makes me think of like radical churches that all freak out about stuff like whether Harry Potter is demonic or something like that. It sucks. I was part of a church like that, and it’s so difficult to do anything or feel like a real person and not just a prisoner. I can’t...

“Must be hard, being the vessel of Heaven and having no hope.” UGH, YOU UNDERSTAND HIM! Except if you’re being facetious, in which case, I will curbstomp you.

“There’s sure as Hell demons, and maybe there is a God, fine. But I’m not a hypocrite. Never prayed before, and I ain’t startin’ now, and if I go to Hell, I’m going honest.” I like him. But that doesn’t mean there’s not something wrong with him.

“I believe. Yeah, I do. I’m just pretty sure God stopped caring a long time ago.” I AM SO DEPRESS.

Dean, bby, stop it! Stop talking like this. “You can’t do this...to me. I got one thing, one thing keeping me going. You think you’re the only one white-knuckling it here, Dean? I can’t count on anyone else. And I can’t do this alone.” Thank  you, Sam. Thank you for saying what needed to be said.

Shit’s about to get real right here. CASTIEL! “It was long, your message. And I find the sound of your voice grating.” Cas, bby, you’re drunk. “I found a liquor store.” “And?” “And I drank it.” Oh, Cas. “Don’t ask stupid questions.”

I can’t help but think this is funny. Wait, what? Leah’s not a prophet? TROLOLOL look at Cas’ face. But yeah, Sam’s right. If she’s not a prophet, what is she? What’s going on?

This is pretty much bullshit. Thank you, Dean, for punching him. WOAH JANE JUST SHOT PAUL WHAT THE HELL! Dean is like “Woah, lady.”

“Where the hell have you been?” “On a bender!” TROLOLOL Again, this shouldn’t be funny, but it is.

“The Whore.” “Wow, Cas, tell us what you really think.” “She rises when Lucifer walks the Earth. And she shall come bearing false prophecy.” Well, shit. That’s not good. Also, can Cas just say Whore a few more times?

“It actually means, you breed with the mouth of a goat. It’s uh...funnier in Enochian.” Holy...I can’t...I can’t even...this is perfect. I love drunk Cas. “The Whore can only be killed by a true servant of Heaven.” “Servant like...” “Not you. Or me. Sam, of course, is an abomination.” THEIR FACES DURING THIS ARE PRICELESS!

So, it’s going to have to be the priest, isn’t it? He’s a true servant of Heaven. He’s going to have to kill the Whore, and she’s in his daughter’s body. “Let me go, or the next sinner I name will be you.” New rule for this show. If you don’t use contractions, you’re not human.

“How do you manage it?” “On a good day, you get to kill a Whore.”

WHAT DID THAT BITCH DO TO CASTIEL I WILL CURBSTOMP YOU! I WILL SMASH YOUR SKULL IN! I swear, I’m really not this violent.

Shit, that was awesome. Did Dean kill her? I thought he couldn’t?! HOLY CRAP EVERYTHING IS CONFUSING BUT DEAN KILLED THE WHORE AND LIFE IS PERFECT!

Oh, crap, but he better not say yes to Michael. Dean, what are you doing why are you doing this I can’t even get a sentence together or think of anything to say other than to sob WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

WHY, DEAN! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS!

Why are you back at Lisa’s? Why? Oh, I just want to hold him and hug him and cuddle him and let him cry on my shoulder.

“When I do picture myself happy, it’s with you. And the kid.” I...I can’t...I cannot even...

Dean, I am crying. You made me cry. Why are you doing this? Please...

***

I had to walk away from this review for a few minutes. Since I liveblog all of my reviews, people reading this can see exactly my thought processes for everything; I don’t change anything or add anything. I watch and blog at the same time. That’s good and bad. In this case, it wasn’t such a good thing.

I think one of the reasons this episode hit me so strongly was mostly just because I know how Dean feels. Between Sam and Dean, I more closely identify with Dean. I’m not going to go into all of the ways I indentify with him, but there are a lot. The major one, the one that made me start to cry so hard I couldn’t breathe or see just now, is the feeling like it’s all up to him. He has to save everyone and everything, and he has to make it right. It’s his fault when something bad happens.

That’s exactly how I feel all the time. I know what that feels like. And it sucks. It hurts so much that you can’t even begin to know how to deal with it on your own, and you block it away because it’s easier to pretend like everything’s fine than to just face how much pain you’re actually in.

This felt like Dean giving up hope, and because I feel a lot of the same things that Dean does, it felt a little bit like I was giving up hope, too, and that’s scarier than anything you’ll find on this show. That’s a very sobering thought.

I live a Drunk!Castiel Appreciation Life.

Liz Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 17: 99 Problems (SPOILER BLOG)

I read the summary for this episode, and I was like, “Did I even watch this?” Like, I don’t remember it at all. I think I remember the girl who thinks she’s a prophet and I know she ends up not being one, but I don’t remember anything else or whether she’s evil or what. I. HAVE. NO. IDEA. So, this is going to be liveblog-ish. I mean, so was my last blog. So yeah. I don’t know. Ignore my rambling.

I’m seven minutes into this episode and I don’t really have anything to say. It’s a cool concept, I guess. A town full of people who know about demons. It’s sort of like what the whole world would look like if the Apocalypse got to a certain point.

Voicemail: You’ve reached the voicemail of--
Castiel: I don’t understand. Why do you want me to say my name?

If that girl was really a prophet who’d been listening to angels, she would know that being around Sam and Dean Winchester is decidedly NOT SAFE because demons follow them everywhere they go. They want to KILL Dean and kidnap Sam so Lucifer can use him as an angel condom, so if she were really in the know, she’d be like, “Dad. They need to leave. LIKE NOW.”

Those two dudes are boning. Just saying. They’re in love and it’s incredibly obvious to me.

YES someone finally listened to me about the holy water spray gun! Flinging it out of bottles is so wasteful.

I love that little moment when we see Sam and Dean bump their beers together. It’s so cute. It’s like a little secret brotherly handshake. I LOVE. #WBA

I feel like I should have a million things to say about this but I don’t. Ugh.

“No drinking, no gambling, no premarital sex... Dean, they basically just outlawed 90% of your personality.”

I feel like Sam is very eager to keep Dean in this easy little box of women and booze. I just feel like it hasn’t been true recently. When’s the last time Dean went off and had random sex with someone? Or gambled for pleasure, not just to get money? It just seems like Sam doesn’t really... get his brother right now. Or he’s not trying to. I don’t know. I think he needs to try harder.

We’re back to Tired Dean and Angry Sam. It’s such a consistent theme for Season 4 and 5. Hell BROKE Dean; he’s exhausted and sick of being messed with and ready to just roll over and take it. But Sam, since the demon blood thing, is impassioned and furious and ready for a fight.

Castiel: I got your message. It was long, your message. And I find the sound of your voice grating.
Sam: What’s wrong with you. Are you... drunk?
Castiel: No! Yes.
Sam: What the hell happened to you?
Castiel: I found a liquor store.
Sam: And?
Castiel: And I drank it! Why’d you call me?
Sam: Woah, easy! Are you okay?
Castiel: Don’t ask stupid questions.

Oh my god, favorite exchange to ever exist. CASTIEL HAS TO DRINK AN ENTIRE LIQUOR STORE TO BECOME INEBRIATED. I love him so much. And Jared literally has to hunch over so Misha can whisper in his ear. It kills me. THIS EPISODE GETS SO MUCH BETTER ONCE CAS ARRIVES.

“The names of all the prophets are seared into my brain. Leah Gideon is not one of them.” I love this. I don’t know why. I think angels are awesome. Despite their consistent douchebaggery.

The idea of people who are devout enough to run their friends and family out of town confuse me a lot. I was raised by churches, and one of the messages I received was that if God asked you to leave your family, you would, because you love God the most. But my belief was that God would never ask me to do that, because he loves me. So, a God who asked me to leave my family isn’t a God I want to believe in anyway. So these townspeople are basically willing to do whatever it takes to please a God who clearly doesn’t love them, because a God who loves them wouldn’t ask them to do that. Does that make any sense? Ugh. Religion is confusing.

Also: thou shalt not kill. Are you dumb, bitch?

Castiel: It’s starting.
Dean: What’s starting? Where the hell have you been?
Castiel: On a bender!
Dean: Did he... did you say ‘on a bender’?
Sam: Yeah, he’s still pretty smashed.
Castiel: It is not of import.

YES OTHER FAVORITE EXCHANGE EVER. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. Drunk Cas is my favorite.

Ahhhhh, the Whore of Babylon. I remember now. Sort of. I love it. Again, I love it. I love Biblical stuff.

Dean: And the Enochian exorcism?
Castiel: Fake. It actually means... ‘you breed with the mouth of a goat’.
Dean and Sam: (silence)
Castiel: It’s funnier in Enochian.

I LOVE EVERY MOMENT CASTIEL IS AROUND. HE MAKES THIS EPISODE FANTASTIC.

Castiel: The Whore can only be killed by a true servant of Heaven.
Dean: A servant, like--
Castiel: Not you, or me. Sam, of course, is an abomination.

I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. I’m choosing laughter just for my own sanity.

Castiel: You’re a servant of Heaven.
Pastor: And you’re an angel.
Castiel: A poor example of one.

I need a bucket for my creys. Castiel, you are perfect in every way. I love you SO MUCH.

DEAN WHY ARE YOU GIVING HIM PAINKILLERS DON’T YOU REMEMBER 2014!CAS DO YOU WANT HIM TO BECOME AN EMPTY SHELL OF HIMSELF DEAN

Dean is carrying Cas! This should not thrill me, but it does.

DEAN WINCHESTER DON’T JUST LEAVE YOUR BROTHER STANDING THERE SCREAMING AFTER YOU. I literally feel like crying right now. I hate the look on Sam’s face.

I
FORGOT
THAT
LISA
WAS
AT
THE
END
OF
THIS
EPISODE

Okay, so. Um. I don’t know how I feel about Lisa. In past blogs, I’ve been pretty adamant about the fact that I don’t like her. She’s so grossly perfect, with her hair and her teeth and her tan and her house in the suburbs, etc. But from Dean’s point of view, I understand why she’s his dream girl. She’s gorgeous and she has a son who could be his (I think he is. I really do. Headcanon.) and she has the whole apple pie life that he never got to have. When he goes to her at the end of this episode, he isn’t intending to stay. He isn’t planning on living with her. He doesn’t say, “I want to stay with you and be happy. He says, “I wanted you to know that when I do picture myself happy, it’s with you, and the kid.” When he pictures himself happy. That’s a very removed statement.

I do think he loves her in his way. I mean, obviously, he stays with her and Ben for a year after Sam dies. They are of a great comfort to him, and he’s clearly WRECKED at the end of Season 6 when Cas wipes their memories. But that life was never meant for him. It just wasn’t. He’s a hunter, and it may not always be fun, and it’s never easy, and it hurts like hell, but it’s who he is.

I don’t know. UGH LISA. So confusing. I just never know how to feel about her.

What I hate most about the end of this episode is that Dean has reached the end of his rope. He’s going to give himself up to the angels. It’s all over.

UGH THE HURTS. I actually just started crying. That doesn't happen often. Sometimes I say that I'm crying when I'm really just flailing and moaning, but the past two episodes have actually brought tears to my eyes.

Sarah Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 16: Dark Side Of The Moon

*Insert obvious and obligatory reference to Wizard of Oz and Pink Floyd*

Now that’s out of the way...showtime...

They have died quite a lot, haven’t they? The Samulet is back? And I must have missed when Sam said that Bobby gave it to him. OH SHIT THAT’S A GUN.

Walt and Roy? What now? Friends of theirs? Ah, fellow Hunters. FUCK WHAT NO! “You want to spend the rest of your life knowing Dean Winchester’s on your ass? ‘Cause I don’t.” Shit, no one does. That would be the scariest thing ever.

Oh, Dean’s freaking PISSED. I would be too. But uh...he’s dead. This is really not good. Wait...what’s this? Baby!Sam. Is this like a “life passing before your eyes” thing? It’s depressing, whatever it is.

Cas is talking to him through the radio? He’s dead, though? And in Heaven? “Follow the road.” Like Wizard of Oz. I love that Dean’s Heaven!Memory is time with Sam, and that Sam’s is his first real Thanksgiving.

“Find Joshua. The rumor is, he talks to God.”

Oh, follow the road. I get it! Oh, this is awesome. Oh, John and Mary. “I wuv hugz.” Yes, yes. I will hug you.

John left for a couple of days? I wonder what their conversation was. “It’s okay Mom. Dad still loves you. I love you too. I’ll never leave you.” I’m crying. That’s what I told my mom when my parents got divorced...even though I was 4 years old, probably only a bit older than Dean in this memory, when it really happened.

Aw, pie is linked to Mommy. Should have seen that coming. “I just never realized how long you’ve been cleaning up Dad’s messes.”

Where are they? Sam had a dog named Bones? And he lived in Flagstaff, Arizona. Ugh, Sam ran away when Dean was watching him, and probably got beat by John. Shit. Not a good memory for Dean, but I guess it was a good one for Sam. Shit.

Uh-oh. Sam’s memory of leaving Dean and John to go to Stamford. Ugh. This is horrible for Dean. Poor bby. I would feel sick if I knew that my worst memories were someone else’s best ones.

Aw, crap, Zachariah.

ASH! You’re in Heaven! All my creys forever! “Like Disneyland, without all the anti-Semitism.” I love this idea of Heaven. Soul mates share Heaven. That’s beautiful. Ash is fluent in Enochian? Beautiful man.

Pam! You’re in Heaven, too! I don’t like her line of thought, though. “Maybe you don’t have to fight it so hard.” Oh...kisses. Welp...Pam, you’re awesome.

Oh, GOD! No, this is bad. This is really not good. What is happening? No, Mary, no. Dean, don’t listen to her! It’s not real. No. This is something bad. “Everybody leaves you, Dean. Haven’t you noticed?” I am literally crying right now. This is terrible. I don’t like it. This is horrible.

Zachariah kissing Mary’s neck. Oh, fuck. That’s not good. They’re going to kill him in like a hot second when they get the chance. He’s like the fuck-all crazy-ass uncle. “Lucifer may be strong, but I’m petty.”

“You know how He is with that whole...Wrath...thing.” I’m guessing this BAMF is Joshua? Cleveland Botanical Gardens. Nice. “So you talk to God.” “Mostly, He talks to me.” Perfect.

God’s on Earth? “Back off.” God doesn’t think it’s His problem? I can’t...this is sad. “Just another Deadbeat Dad with a lot of excuses.” Shit. I’m crying.

“This time won’t be like the last. This time, God wants you...to remember.” Oh boy. This doesn’t sound good.

Cas’ face. Poor guy. He looks so heartbroken. “It’s worthless.” No, the Samulet isn’t worthless! SAD! Dean, you made me cry. And you upset Sam! I can’t believe you, bby. This isn’t like you.

Suffice it to say, this episode really upset me. I don’t like the idea of there being a supreme being, higher power, God, whatever, who just sits idly by while the world falls apart. I don’t know. I just hate that thought. I want to believe that God listens to everyone, that He knows all our hearts, that He takes the time to touch each of our lives when we need Him to.

I don’t generally like to talk about religion, because I think there’s a ton of controversy, and no one is going to think exactly like you do. However, I’m going to make an exception. I’ve seen miracles. Not just babies or things like that (as miraculous as they are). I’ve seen miracles. I believe in them. I believe in prayer, and I believe that God answers our prayers.

There are so many more thoughts in my head I wish I could articulate, but I just can’t.

I live an Ash Appreciation Life.

Liz Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 16: Dark Side of the Moon (SPOILER BLOG)

This episode gives me SO MANY FEELINGS. Oh my god. I am not ready.

I love how the first thing Dean does when he wakes up is reach under his pillow for his gun.

OH, poor Sam. He’s had to sit there in silence until Dean woke up.

LOL Roy and Walt Disney. Ridiculous. Kripke, what is your life.

“Well, is it just me, or do you two seem a tad upset?” I love how he says this. Jaunty-Confident-Dean is funny. Not always, but sometimes.

Walt: You think you can just flip the switch on the Apocalypse, and just walk away, Sam?
Sam: Who told you that?

Sam’s face BREAKS MY HEART. He is so full of regrets. POOR BABY.

GAH SAM IS SHOT.

Roy: Killing Sam was right, but Dean--
Walt: He made us, and we just snuffed his brother, you idiot. You want to spend the rest of your life knowing Dean Winchester’s on your ass? ‘Cause I don’t. Shoot him.
Dean: Go ahead, Roy, do it. But I’m gonna warn you-- when I come back, I’m gonna be pissed.

I LOVE THIS LINE. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. OH MY GOD. I COULD TALK ABOUT IT FOR HOURS. I just love the Winchester’s infamy. John was really well known in the hunter community and Sam and Dean by association, so I like to think that other hunters always knew they were going to grow up to be really badass. And now everyone’s kind of scared of them because they know that if you cross them, they’ll take you down. I just adore the way that Walt says “Dean Winchester” like he’s the fucking Bogeyman or something. Like KILL HIM OR HE WILL STALK AND MURDER US.

Heaven! All the feelings. BABY SAM. FOURTH OF JULY. FIREWORKS. LET ME DIE. I love seeing older Dean interact with Baby Sam. And Dean looks SO HAPPY. He just looks childlike and joyous. I am actually crying right now.

Dean: I’m dead.
Castiel: Condolences.

THEY ARE MY WORLD.

“If I’m in Heaven, then where is Sam?” HEARTBREAKING LINE.

Follow the yellow brick road, Dean. I swear this entire show is the Wizard of Oz. OH AND THIS EPISODE IS CALLED DARK SIDE OF THE MOON AND THE ALBUM DARK SIDE OF THE MOON SYNCS UP WITH THE WIZARD OF OZ OH MY GOD EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE NOW.

Everything about Sam makes me sad. Like, really.
Sam: Heaven.
Dean: Yep.
Sam: How are we in Heaven?
Dean: All that clean living, I guess.
Sam: No, no. You, I get, sure, but me? Maybe you haven’t noticed, but, um... I’ve... done a few things?
Dean: You thought you were doing the right thing.
Sam: Last time I checked, it wasn’t the road to heaven that was paved with good intentions.

I love this little snippet of dialogue. It’s interesting because in the early seasons, one would have expected that sweet little Sammy would be the heavenly one and Dean, the bad boy, would be destined for Hell, but look how that’s reversed itself. So interesting. I LOVE THIS SHOW.

Dean: What are you talking about? We had Thanksgiving every year.
Sam: We had a bucket of Extra Crispy and Dad passed out on the couch.

This is kind of a terrifying snapshot of their childhood. I hear ‘passing out’ as ‘passing out drunk’, but maybe that’s just me. So the image I’m getting is John coming home on Thanksgiving night, drunk off his ass, and tossing the boys a bucket of chicken before passing out on the couch. It’s horrible. No wonder Sam was happy to get out.

Dean: You find him!
Castiel: I can’t. I can’t return to Heaven.

Sometimes Cas gets so bitter about being cut off from Heaven.

“Please. I just need you to follow the road. [...] It’s a path that runs through Heaven. Different people see it as different things. For you, it’s two lane asphalt. The road will lead you to the Garden; you’ll find Joshua there. And Joshua will take us to God.

1) SO WIZARD OF OZ. 2) I love the idea of the road that runs through Heaven and people seeing it as a river or a path or a road. I especially love that Dean and Sam see it as a road because they practically grew up on the road. For them, a road is familiar.

GAH DEAN IN THE LITTLE KID SHIRT AND SEEING MARY MY HEART MY POOR HEART. It’s just so sad because Dean at least had some semblance of a normal childhood before it was viciously ripped away. He had toy cars and PB&Js with the crusts cut off and he remembers his mother. Sam never had any of that. He has to be left out of this memory. He has to watch from the doorway. It’s awful.

I love the way Dean looks a his mother. Heartbreaking.

Sam: Dean, uh, we should go... keep looking for the road...
Dean: I know. Just, just give me a minute, okay?
Sam: Dean...
Dean: Sam! Please. Just one minute.

Sam just wants to get out of here. He doesn’t want to watch his mother ignore him and watch Dean get the childhood he never got to have. But Dean can’t bear to leave because these are the happiest memories he has.

Sam: Dad always said they had the perfect marriage.
Dean: It wasn’t perfect until after she died.

Isn’t that the way?

“It’s okay, Mom. Dad still loves you. I love you, too. I’ll never leave you.” I’m just picturing Baby Dean actually saying this to Mary. Even at four years old, Dean knew that it was his job to protect his family. He knew that he had to keep them together, keep his mom happy, obey his father, protect Sam. That was always his job.

Dean: What?
Sam: I just never realized how long you’ve been cleaning up Dad’s messes.

He really has. Dean is the glue that binds the Winchesters together.

Sam’s face LIGHTS UP when the dog comes in the room. This is so Jared. Jared loves his puppies.

Dean: Is this Flagstaff?
Sam: Yeah!
Dean: This is a good memory for you?
Sam: Yeah, I mean, I was on my own for two weeks! I lived off of Funyuns and Mr. Pib.
Dean: Wow.
Sam: What?
Dean: You don’t remember, do you? You ran away on my watch. I looked everywhere for you, I thought you were dead. And when Dad came home...

This is horrifying. I can completely see where Sam is coming from: he grew up like he was in the military, so two weeks away where he could relax and have a dog and just be happy must have seemed like paradise. But he had NO IDEA what Dean was going through in his absence. I don’t think he ever had any idea growing up of how much pressure John put on Dean to keep Sam safe, or how much pressure Dean put on himself. It’s awful. Dean gets such a horrified look in his eye when he thinks about John’s reaction to Sam being gone; it almost makes me think that something physical went down, like something really bad. Like John really hurt him. Sam was obviously clueless about his family dichotomy. He even said it in the last scene; he never really understood how much Dean sacrificed for their family.

Dean: Wait a minute, wait a minute... this? This is the night you ditched us for Stanford, isn’t it? This is your idea of Heaven? Wow. This is like, one of the worst nights of my life.
Sam: I can’t control this stuff.
Dean: Seriously? This is a happy memory for you?
Sam: I don’t know! I mean, I was on my own! I finally got away from Dad!
Dean: Yeah, he wasn’t the only one you got away from.

MY HEART IS LITERALLY BROKEN. All of Sam’s happy memories are Dean’s worst.

Dean: Your Heaven is someone else’s Thanksgiving. Okay? It’s bailing on your family. What do you want me to say?
Sam: Man, I never got the crusts cut off my PB&J. I just don’t look at family the way you do.
Dean: Yeah, but I am your family!
Sam: I know, but--
Dean: I mean, we’re supposed to be a team! It’s supposed to be you and me against the world, right?
Sam: Dean, it is!
Dean: Is it?

I AM LITERALLY HUGGING MYSELF AND ROCKING BACK AND FORTH AND SOBBING. This episode is way too much for my emotions. I am so unstable.

ASH. FUCK YES I MISSED HIM SO MUCH.

Do Sam and Dean share a heaven? Because they’re not really sharing. They’re just hopping from memory to memory. I’m confused.

Ash’s response to hearing about Ellen and Jo dying is heartwrenching. Do they ever say how Ash knows them? Like are they related? I’m interesting in finding out.

John Winchester is in hell, isn’t he? That’s been said.

Dean: If it makes you feel better, we got Ash killed, too.
Ash: I’m cool with it!
Dean: He’s cool with it.

Pamela, I am not on your side right now. I struggle a lot with this, because I like to imagine that Heaven is a wonderful place that I will go when I die and that people who die aren’t suffering because they’re in a better place and all that, but LIFE. LIFE is better. And all the people that would die if Dean said yes to Michael... it wouldn’t be right, or fair. I like to imagine Heaven as a place of rest, after you’ve lived and it’s your time to move on

PAMELA IS MACKING ON DEAN. Whatever, I would do the same thing. Pam is awesome.

“I don’t mean to be a downer or anything, but I’m sure I’ll see you again, soon.” I love you, Ash. REALLY.

AUGH ANGELS ARE SO MEAN. WHY ARE THEY MANIPULATING HEAVEN. EVERYTHING HURTS.

“Everybody leaves you, Dean. You noticed? Mommy, Daddy, even Sam. Ever ask yourself why? Maybe it’s not them. Maybe it’s you.”

The angels, especially Zachariah, know exactly how to hurt Dean. They’re so good at it. He’s always the one to tell Dean that he’s worthless or stupid or inadequate. He knows just what buttons to push.

“In Heaven, I have six wings and four faces, one of which is a lion.” AUGH I LOVE ANGEL LORE. Fucking awesome.

JOSHUA IS MY WORLD.

I’m encountering a lot of information that seems to point to Chuck being God. And I think it’s canon. Like, they reference him at cons and say things that make me thing it’s like, established fact.

Okay this last scene is literally the saddest thing I have ever seen in my entire life. Castiel’s faith crisis: he’s just SO HOPELESS. Abandonment daddy issues. He and Dean share so much.

“I don’t need this anymore. It’s worthless.” CASTIEL STOP IT BABY.

DEAN NO. DON’T THROW IT AWAY. DON’T THROW AWAY THE SAMULET WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT AUGHHH DON’T YOU LOVE YOUR BROTHER DEAN? Sam looks wrecked when Dean does this. It’s like Dean ripped out his heart and threw it in the trash can.

This episode made me cry like, eight times. And now I’m dead. I can’t do this. I want to cry.

Sarah Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 15: Dead Men Don't Wear Plaid

I get a little bit of a bad feeling whenever the title of the episodes has the word ‘death’ in it. Just saying.

Zombie Apocalypse? Woah. Hey, bro, that’s a nice hole in the crotch of your jeans. *eyeroll* So people are getting raised from the dead to kill people? Isn’t this kind of like the episode where ghosts were haunting people they thought wronged them, or whatever that was…

“You gave yourself your own nickname? You can’t do that.” “Who died and made you queen?” Awesome.

I love all the different kinds of phones Bobby has in his house. Perfect. How does this chick know Bobby? Weird. Drunk and disorderly charges, and mail fraud? Woof. Oh, they’re very close to Bobby’s. Odd.

I’m guessing this is Clay’s old house? Weird. Oh, shit, behind you! Oh, jeez. “You’re a zombie.” “I’m a taxpayer.” Oh, boy. What the hell is this?! I am super confuse.

“There are zombies, and then there are zombies.” What? OH BOY. BOBBY’S WIFE! Oh, no. This is not good. Not. Good. He’ll never be able to get over this, when she has to get dead again.

Bobby creamated her? But, she shouldn’t have been able to come back if she didn’t have a body. Shit. Another Horseman? DEATH?! DEATHDEATHDEATH! SHITSHITSHITSHIT THIS IS NOT GOOD!

Bobby’s going to ask them not to kill Death, isn’t he? And he’s going to be upset when they have to, but shit. Sam and Dean have to kill the Horseman. Ugh this sucks.

So can Karen just be anywhere whenever she wants? That’s probably not a very good sign. She baked a lot of pies.

Is it just me or is Ezra Jones pretty much the scariest thing you’ve ever seen? “Yeah, I’m gonna regret this. OHGODOHGODOHGOD! She was rabid. Like…foaming at the mouth rabid.

Bobby…I am speechless. I can’t even handle my level of speechlessness. Oh, Karen is starting to go bad, isn’t she? Sean killed Owen, didn’t he? Oh, yuck, grossgrossgrossthisistotallydisgusting.

Oh, Sheriff. I feel so bad for you. This sucks. This is really horrible. Sam had to kill him. Ugh, no, this is so sad. I’m going to cry. Karen…OH KAREN I LOVE YOU YOU ARE PERFECT!

I can’t ever imagine having to kill the person I loved, especially if I had to do it twice. “When I came back, there was a man. At the grave. He was so thin, like a skeleton. And he told me to give you a message.” Horseman? I HATE WHEN THEY DON’T TELL YOU IMPORTANT THINGS!

Bobby…Bobby, bby, I’m so sorry. I would hug you if I could. Woah, dead bitches be quick. Nice one, Bobby. You’re a brilliant shot. Dean, bby, you’re fucking hot when you’re armed and killing bad people. Nice teamwork, boys.

Ooh, nice shot of the blood on the camera. Good one.

I’m glad Bobby’s burning Karen at their place. “She was the love of my life. How many times do I gotta kill her?” Ugh, Bobby.

Why was Death there? He came for Bobby? Shit. That’s really not good.

I think this episode was one of the saddest ones I’ve seen. Definitely makes top 5.

I live a Karen Appreciation Life.

Liz Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 15: Dead Men Don't Wear Plaid (SPOILER BLOG)

I am so ashamed of how little I remember during Season 5. I must have been asleep seriously. I remember nothing. All I know about this episode is that Bobby’s wife comes back and bakes them, like, a million pies. And Bobby combs his hair. THAT’S IT.

ZOMBIES. GUH.

“Who died and made you queen?” I love.

Oh, hey, Sheriff Jodi Mills! I like you!

Oh my god, watching Dean and Sam get caught is like watching two kindergardeners get scolded. THEY ARE LITTLE CHILDREN AND I LOVE IT.

Dean: What is that smell? Is that soap? Did you clean?
Bobby: What are you, my mother? Bite me!

OH BOBBY. He cleaned up for his wife. All the sadness.

Clay: I can’t believe you were going to kill me!
Dean: You’re a zombie!
Clay: I’m a taxpayer!

I love that Dean’s like, over it. He’s like ANYONE WHO GIVES ME PIE IS ALLOWED TO LIVE.

YES I LOVE DEATH. The man is so badass. I can’t wait until he arrives.

“Look, just read Revelations! The dead rise during the Apocalypse, there’s nothing in there that says that’s bad! Hell, maybe it’s the one good thing that comes out of this whole bloody mess!”

The idea of dead people coming back to life is very interesting to me. I’m very on-board with Dean’s Season 2 proclamation of “what’s dead should stay dead”. I recognize that if someone close to me died, I might feel differently about this, but right now, I don’t see the dead rising as a good thing. People die for a reason; it’s the circle of life and all that crap. People being raised from the dead or never dying or whatever: that’s just wrong and unnatural. And yes, obviously I recognize that both Sam and Dean have been brought back to life (several times) but I regard them as the exception that proves the rule.

I’m eating cookies while I’m watching this, and watching that old lady cough and drool and generally be gross almost made me lose my appetite. ALMOST.

Poor Bobby. He just doesn’t understand. There are so many people on Supernatural who are blinded by love to the point where they can’t see evil in front of their faces.

Dean: They’re idiots, they can’t pick a lock!
Bobby: Don’t you ever get tired of being wrong?
Dean: I’m making this stuff up as I go, sue me!

I just enjoy their banter.

Sherrif Jodi Mills is a BADASS. I LOVE HER.

This episode is sad. Don’t like when Bobby is sad. Sorry for no more coherent thoughts.

Sarah Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 14: My Bloody Valentine

Wasn’t Jensen in that movie? I haven’t seen it, but still... #random...ornotsorandom

“I respect the crap outta you right now.” HAHAHA

Um...WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING?! THEY’RE BITING EACH OTHER A LOT. GROSSGROSSGROSSGROSSGROSS I’m really grossed out. Ew.

“Talk about codependent.” Dean... XD Dean’s not into bars full of unattached women because HE LOVES CASTIEL!

What the hell is wrong with her? Shit, she killed his coworker. Shit. That is not good. Holy shit, something is making people commit suicide and eat each other and what the hell is it? Who is that guy?

“Be my valentine?” So cute.

Enochian? Oh, great. Juuuust great. “I’m there now.” “Yeah, I get that.” “I’m gonna hang up now.” “Right.” TROLOLOL

Mark of union? They were intended to mate? What now? Cupid...well...um...cherub, third class. “They’re not incontinent.” “We have to stop him, before he kills again.” “Of course we do.”

What the hell is going on? I am very confuse right now. I don’t even know what I’m thinking or anything like that. TROLOLOL This cupid guy is precious. Sort of...

He’s hugging Cas, and it’s hilarious. They handshake by hugging. “I don’t like it.” “No one likes it.” I LOVE HUGGING! Except maybe hugging random people who are naked. I’m not really into that.

“I love love, and if that’s wrong, then I don’t want to be right.”

“Heaven, silly. Heaven.” Oh, this is really interesting. I don’t like the idea of Cupids fixing people up. I don’t know. It seems weird to me when I think of people who “are meant to be” being fixed up by a person. I mean, I know technically, Cupid isn’t a person, but he’s close enough for this theory. When ‘Fate’ is personified, I get freaked out. Probably because I believe in it, as well as “meant to be” couples. But it’s scary to me at the same time. I can’t really describe it, I guess. Sorry...

I love when Dean tries to punch angels and it doesn’t go very well. It’s funny. But what is wrong with Dean? He’s been all strange, Sam’s right.

That guy died from Twinkies. I never liked those little cakes anyway. Too phallic...not that that’s a bad thing really ever, but....#footinmouthdiseasestrikesagain

That guy looks like a Reaper, but Reapers don’t carry briefcases. He’s a demon? What the shit? Sam, don’t do it! NOT THE BLOOD, SAM! DON’T DO IT! Oh, good boy.

HUMAN SOUL WHAT THE HELL? Cas, why are you eating? The town is suffering from starvation? From famine? Ohhhh, Horsemen shit. Look at Cas. Oh, Sam is hungering for demon blood.

Jimmy is craving red meat. Cas looks so upset about it. TROLOLOL oh, that old guy is pretty scary. Slight redirection here, but what is Dean craving? Ugh, that is absolutely disgusting. The scene in the diner...so disgusting. Ugh, that guy is FREAKY AS SHIT!

Aw, Sammy. Poor bby. I feel bad for you. I know this is just because of Famine, but still, it’s scary. Oh, this is going to be bad, though, because Famine has the key to the hotel room.

Misha must have hated hamburgers after this episode. Just on screen he’s eaten like 5 hamburgers, and that can’t be all. He’s got all the different takes that he has to be eating in. I would cry if I was forced to eat that many burgers. And I really like burgers.

“So you’re saying you’re well adjusted?” “Hell no. I’m just well-fed.”

Sammy, I’m so sad for you. I am so depress right now. Demons are coming for Sam’s soul. Sam, you’re fucking awesome, but seriously, you relapsed. This is really not good. “Wait your turn.” Sam, you’re scary with all that blood on your face.

Cas seems totally unconcerned about having to go cut off a Horseman’s finger. And Dean’s over there like whatever. Oh...and he’s eating raw meat. That is horrible for you. Poor Misha.

“Hunger doesn’t only come from the body, it comes from the soul.” I WONDER WHY DEAN ISN’T HUNGRY TELL ME TELLMETELLME!

He doesn’t have a soul? Is that what’s up? Or he’s just broken. Oh, Dean, bby. I want to hug you and cuddle you and love you. Oh. “Inside, you’re already dead.” Oh. Dean. BBY I AM CRYING FOR YOU! And Sam. I’m so sorry, bby. Sam, you can’t. Good Sam. Dean, you’re up now. Cut his finger off. WOAH THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER!

I love that Cas was just eating that meat the whole time. Dean, don’t look at him like that. It’s not his fault. It’s not his fault. This is so sad. I has all the sads in the world right now. This is a really depressing episode. I mean, poor Dean. I want him to be better inside. At least the way

“Please. I can’t...I need some help. Please?” Jensen, how do you make crying look manly? I will ask this question every time you cry. On a less ‘I-am-extremely-attracted-to-Jensen-Ackles’ note, that was such an interesting thing for Dean to do. He doesn’t ask for help. Not like that. He doesn’t pray for help, which is exactly what he did there. Bby, I will hold you and rock you forever.

I live a Dean Appreciation Life. I also live a Jensen Ackles Appreciation Life.

Liz Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 14: My Bloody Valentine (SPOILER BLOG)

FAMINE FAMINE FAMINE. Also Cupid. This episode is cool, I guess.

EUGH. Grossest sex scene ever. They are literally eating each other. I am so displeased. I do not have a blood kink at all. I recognize that some people do but I do not like blood. EW. I literally had to turn the sound off because it was making me ill.

Sam: All right, I’m just going to go through some files. You can get going.
Dean: Sorry?
Sam: Go ahead. Unleash the Kraken. See you tomorrow morning.
Dean: Where am I going?
Sam: Dean, it’s Valentine’s Day. Your favorite holiday, remember? What do you always call it? Unattached Drifter Christmas?
Dean: Yeah, well, be that as it may, I don’t know... guess I’m not feeling it this year.
Sam: So, you’re not into bars full of lonely women?
Dean: I guess not. What?
Sam: It’s when a dog doesn’t eat... that’s when you know something’s really wrong.
Dean: Remarkably patronizing concern. Duly noted.

DEAN IS TOTALLY IN A SECRET RELATIONSHIP WITH CASTIEL OH MY GOD THAT IS WHY DEAN IS REFUSING LONELY GIRL VALENTINE’S DAY SEX THEIR LOVE IS SO CANON.

I do not like watching them root through everyone’s organs. Not my idea of a good time. AT ALL.

Dean: Room 31C Basement Level. St. James Medical Center.
Castiel: I’m there now.
Dean: Yeah, I get that.
Castiel: I’m gonna... hang up... now.
Dean: Right.

WELL THAT’S EXTREMELY HOMOEROTIC.

CASTIEL WANTS DEAN’S BURGER SO BAD OMG HE IS DROOLING. That wasn’t meant to come across as sexual, but somehow it did. My apologies. Except not.

Castiel: This is... their handshake.
Dean: I don’t like it.
Castiel: No one likes it.

I love Cupid. I love him. So precious.

When will Dean learn to stop punching angels? Seriously, it never works out for him.

SAM NO. NO. NO. NO. You have been clean for so long, bb! Also, Sam is looking much bigger than usual. I don’t know whether it’s because I watched some Season 1 the other day, but Jared looks HUGE. LIKE A MOOSE. OR SOMETHING.

Yes! Castiel with the burgers. I love it so much. He is so adorable.

This episode grosses me out so much. It’s like “Metamorphosis” only multiplied by eighteen million. But I think the whole idea of the Four Horseman is so cool. As I’ve said before, I love when they get biblical. Which is why I love Seasons 4 and 5 so much. I just love their interpretation of the Horseman and their effect on humans.

As much as I love Sam and Dean (I DO, I PROMISE) I absolutely love when Dean and Castiel work together, just the two of them. They’re like a comedy routine. They kill me.

Dean: Are you serious?
Castiel: These make me... very happy.
Dean: How many is that?
Castiel: Lost count. It’s in the low hundreds.

A REAL CASTIEL SMILE. They are so rare. Also, I’m dying.

Dean, you’re full of shit. It doesn’t matter how well fed you are, there’s a reason you’re immune to Famine and it’s not that.

BITCH SAM IS ABOUT TO EAT YOU. Demons are so dumb, they really are. I mean, do they ever learn? Sam Winchester is a fucking half-demon moose and he will take your ass down.

Little Castiel puppy is too hungry to be trusted with responsibilities.

“That’s one deep dark nothing you got there, Dean. Can’t fill it, can you? Not with food, or drink. Not even with sex... You can smirk and joke and lie to your brother, lie to yourself, but not to me! I can see inside you, Dean. I can see how broken you are, how defeated you can’t win, and you know it, but you just keep fighting, just keep going through the motions. You’re not hungry, Dean, because inside you’re already dead.”

Any time a character talks about Dean that way, calling him empty or broken inside or something of the like, I just get so upset. I weep. I literally just want to wrap my arms around myself and cry forever. Also, Dean looks utterly BROKEN watching Sam and realizing that his brother has fallen off the wagon. It’s horrible. HORRIBLE. I am clutching my face in horror.

As usual, it’s nice to see Sam using his powers for good, but it doesn’t change the fact that he accomplishes this by drinking demon blood. Ugh. Stupid Ruby getting him addicted. Hate her.

Castiel and Dean having ~*~moment~*~. They are so freaking precious. Best friends.

DEAN IS PRAYING OH DEAR GOD BABY. I cannot watch Dean cry without feeling intense inner turmoil. IT HURTS. I have such empathy with Dean. His pain is my pain. Poor baby.

Now I am so sad. I need to watch another episode.

Sarah Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 13: The Song Remains The Same.\

I feel like this is a line from a song. Actually, saying that made me feel stupid. Plenty of Supernatural episode titles are lyrics or movie titles or something like that. I’m dumb. Womp.

TROLOLOL hi, Anna. Also, I love Dean’s dreams. It’s cute. I mean...well, you know what I mean, I think. Dean, stop being all concerned about Anna just because you had sex with her. I really hope this isn’t a trap.

Aw, Cas. You’re adorbs, protecting the Winchesters. BITCH, ANNA! Fuck you twice and die.

Matt Cohen?! You’re back?! Or are they just referring to your minor appearance in the “Then?”

“Sam is my friend.” CASTIEL YOU BEAUTIFUL ANGEL!

Did she go back to 1970-whatever? SHITSHITSHIT! Don’t tell me that she’s going to try and kill John and Mary...I will curbstomp her.

“I don’t understand that reference.” Cas, I love you dearly. “Ready?” “Not really.” “Bend your knees.” Cute.

I hope Cas is all right. OH, CAS, BBY!

MATT COHEN YOU SEXY THING YOU! Why doesn’t John remember him? Weird. I love that Sam can’t stop looking at Mary. So funny. But you know what’s interesting? It’s 1978, right? And Dean is 4 in 1983 when Mary dies, which means he’s born in 1979. Which means Mary’s probably already pregnant with him now in 1978. Trippy.

FUCK, ANNA I AM GOING TO CURBSTOMP YOU! Why’s her vision so bad? Because she’s still weak from the time travel? FUCK YEAH, MARY! KILL THAT BITCH!

Mary, you got a lot of explaining to do, apparently. Aw, Matt Cohen acting all Daddy-like. Cute. But poor John. This has totally got to suck for him. His own wife lied to him for years about this stuff, and now...he’s got to learn or die, legit.

DEAN’S TEACHING HIS OWN FATHER HOW TO HUNT! ALL MY CREYS FOREVER!

John...I can’t even...and Sam’s sticking up for John to his younger self. That sucks and is making my brain hurt.

Um, I thought Uriel was dead...ohhhhh, I see. He is dead, but this is him from the past. Yeah, that really fucks with my head.

This is really depressing. I has all the sads in the world. I’m crying. He can’t...this is so upsetting. I know that it’s not going to work, but this is so sad anyway. I’m like sitting here crying.

Sam better not be dead. Or something like that. MICHAEL?! WHAT NOW?! JOHN BECAME A VESSEL?! WHAT THE HELL?! I AM SO CONFUSE WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING I HAVE NO SENSE OF ANYTHING HOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK.

“Six degrees of Heaven Bacon.” TROLOLOL

“Free Will is an illusion. That’s why you’re going to say yes.” UGH I don’t want them to get scrubbed. I don’t want Dean to say yes!

“I did? I’m very surprised.” I love his deadpan delivery. Perfect.

Team Free Will. Perfect. I love it. Team Free Will forever.

“Angels are watching over you.” FUCKKKKKK ALL MY CREYS FOREVERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

I live a Cas and Dean Appreciation Life. I live a Matt Cohen Appreciation Life. I live a Team Free Will Appreciation Life.

Liz Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 13: The Song Remains The Same (SPOILER BLOG)

FUCK. ANNA. GET OUT. Ugh. Right now she honestly just feels like a little middle school girl, gossiping about someone. Like, blah blah Castiel, he’s a friend you can count on, Dean, take my side, let’s ignore him at lunch today. SHUT UP. He was confused and doubting and he felt really bad about it and YOU ARE ANNOYING.

I’m never sure whether Anna really did break out of Heaven’s prison or whether she’s actually acting on Heaven’s orders and pretending not to. And does it matter? SHE IS OUT OF HER MIND.

Castiel is so distraught. He cares! He cares about Sam so much! Baby loves his Winchesters so much.

Castiel: The answer’s still no. Because Sam is my friend.
Anna: You’ve changed.
Castiel: Maybe too late, but I have. Anna, we’ve been through much together, but you come near Sam Winchester, and I’ll kill you.

Castiel is standing up for his friends! I love him so much. I feel like he honestly loved Anna at one point, too, because his voice sounds wrecked when he talks about how much they’ve been through. She’s his older sister, he looked up to her, and he was probably devastated when she fell. Now she’s betraying him in a whole new way. But Castiel will not let her hurt his friends. TAKE THAT ANNA.

Sam: What do you think, Cas? Does Anna have a point?
Castiel: No. She’s… Glenn Close.

I LOVE THIS MOMENT. Dean gives him this heartbreaking look, begging him not to say what they’re all thinking. Castiel can’t let him down, and even though the answer is ‘yes’, Castiel says ‘no’ to make Dean happy and even slips in the movie reference that he learned from Dean not five seconds ago. AUGH THEY ARE PERFECT.

Dean: So, what, you’re like a Delorian without enough plutonium?
Castiel: I don’t understand that reference.

There is a reason they are my OTP and this is it. Dean with his movie references and Cas not understanding anything he says but loving him anyway.

AHH CASTIEL HE’S HURT HELP HIM DEAN SWEEP HIM OFF HIS FEET AND CARRY HIM TO THE HONEYMOON SUITE AND RAVISH HIM.

“He’ll wake up. He’s, you know… tough for a little nerdy dude with wings.” This is the most adorable description of Castiel that I have ever heard.

Just-married-Winchesters make my heart melt into a little puddle of goo.

Sam… is… CRYING. I love it so much. When Dean met his parents back in Season 4 he was like, ‘WOAH’ but he got over it pretty quickly. Sam is about to start weeping and insisting on a family photo. It’s nice to see this version of Sam again… recently he’s been so hard-hearted and serious. He made that comment to Dean about not wanting to get married anymore, and he’s so angry. It’s so nice to see him get emotional about family again, like he used to before all this Apocalypse nonsense. BE MY BABY SAM AGAIN. I MISS YOU.

ANNA. AUGH. WHY DO YOU RUIN ALL THE GOOD IN THE WORLD.

My favorite moment ever is coming up. It’s THE BEST.

Mary: John, just try to understand—
Dean: She didn’t exactly have a choice—
Sam: Yeah, she—
John: Shut up, all of you! Look, not another word, or so help me I will turn this car around!

YES. FAMILY BONDING IN THE IMPALA. I ADORE. THE WINCHESTERS ARE MY LIFE.

It’s awful to watch John hurt himself just to prove he’s not useless. He’s basically going to become one of the best hunters in the world and this is where it begins: slitting his palm to write on the wall in blood to fight off something he didn’t know existed until a few hours ago. He’s so young and innocent, but in this moment he’s willing to do whatever it takes to protect Mary and that is just SO JOHN.

Sam: My dad, he raised me in it.
John: You’re serious? Who the hell does that to a kid?
Sam: Well, for the record, Mary’s parents did.
John: I don’t care! What kind of irresponsible bastard lets a child anywhere near… you know, you could have been killed!
Sam: I, uh… came kinda close.
John: The number it must have done on your head… your father was supposed to protect you.
Sam: He was trying. He died trying.

MOST PAINFUL SCENE OF TELEVISION EVER. I AM SO UPSET. SO MANY FEELINGS.

“I used to be mad at him. I mean, I used to… I used to hate the guy. But now, I… I get it. He was… just doing the best he could, and he was trying to keep it together in this impossible situation. See, my mom, um… she was amazing. Beautiful, and she was the love of his life. She got killed, and I think he would have gone crazy if he didn’t do something. Truth is, my dad died before I got to tell him that I understand why he did what he did, and I forgive him for what it did to us, I do. I love him.”

Oh, Sammy baby. Sam is such a parallel to John. They both lost the love of their life and turned to hunting as a way to feel like they were doing something, anything to fight the evil that stole their loved one away from them. I always struggle with how I feel about John, because it is horrible that he raised them in the hunting lifestyle and made them fear the darkness and made them hard and cynical. But if you knew evil was out there, wouldn’t you do anything to keep your children safe? Wouldn’t you want them to know how to protect themselves? It’s confusing and I think it’s a testament to how good this show is that John is neither good nor evil. You love him and hate him.

URIEL HOW ARE YOU STILL ALIVE JUST DIE YOU BASTARD. Oh, right, he’s past Uriel. Gross. And Anna is a lying bitch. Like usual. Ugh, I hate angels. Well, some angels.

Mary: Why does an angel want me dead?
Dean: Because they’re dicks.

TRUTH. Except for his boyfriend. And Gabriel. AND BALTHAZAR (rest in peace, my sweet angel prince).

Poor Mary. I want to cry. I WANT SOMEONE TO MAKE ME TOMATO RICE SOUP AND SING HEY JUDE TO ME. “I raised my kids to be hunters?” MY HEART IS BROKEN. This whole scene is just a bucket of my creys. This is Dean’s second attempt to change the future and it’s just not going to work. SO UPSETTING.

“You think you can have that normal life that you want so bad, but you can’t. I’m sorry. It’s all gonna go rotten.” He’s saying this as much to himself as he’s saying to her. I hate everything.

URIEL OH MY GOD JUST LEAVE YOU ASSBUTT.

MICHAEL IS HERE OH LORD HE IS IN HIS ~*~*~OTHER VESSEL~*~*~

And goodbye Anna, once and for all.

Michael, you’re a douche. Ugh, stop making me feel sorry for you. STOP IT. I don’t like you.

I love that Michael straightens Dean’s shirt. I always kind of wonder how Michael feels about Dean. Like, does he hate him for resisting him or does he like him because they’re like vessel-mates or whatever?

CASTIEL I MISSED YOU. I love when he comes back into the episode after being gone for a while and I just get this little leap of happiness in my heart.

There is nothing sweeter to me than the image of Dean and Sam holding up Castiel. So freaking adorable. And Dean is the first person Cas looks at, and then he looks at Sam and smiles because Sam is alive and they succeeded and Castiel’s falling means something.

“Team Free Will: one ex-blood junkie, one drop-out with six bucks to his name, and Mr. Comatose over there. Awesome.”

WHY does Dean always feel the need to capitalize on his lack of formal education? DEAN, YOU ARE SO SMART. In any case, Team Free Will is my world and I want it back now now now now now now now. Making grabby hands.

MARY LOVES ANGELS. She would have been so pleased with Dean’s boyfriend.

“It’s okay, baby. It’s all okay. Angels are watching over you.”

I was going to make a joke about Destiel but then I was going to cry a little bit about how angels are doucebags and NOW I JUST FEEL PAIN. Damn.

Sarah Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 12: Swap Meat

Ew. Swapping Meat? That sounds much grosser than swapping spit. Or...maybe not. That phrase sounds weird. Swapping spit. Gross.

Sam. What is your problem. “A banana daiquiri, my good man.” What the hell is wrong with you? You are so awkward, and totally on purpose. THAT TINY UMBRELLA IS TWIRLING!

“Are we talking about sex?!” TROLOLOL “I would love to have the sex with you.” HILARIOUS!

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?! HOLY CRAP! Some guy swapped his body with Sam’s or something. But it’s hilarious, either way.

Oh, my...that...ugh, that poor girl. Any time the Winchesters make you a promise, you know they’ll deliver. “Oh, you shake it up, baby.” Dean, I love your growly voice. But that guy behind the counter, he’s the one who took Sam’s body...he’s very creepy looking.

Um, Sam has a dart in his throat. That is not good. But Dean will know something’s up, right? He’s got to. Oh, let me guess, Sam’s in Gary’s body, and he and Dean will have to work together. This is...too good. Sam looks funny in those clothes.

This. Is. Amazing.

Except that it’s really not awesome that the kid is stealing from Sam and Dean...and what did he just throw away? Dean’s phone, so Sammy can’t reach him? Dean, why would you let him...HE CRASHED THE IMPALA! DEAN, HOW CAN YOU NOT TELL THAT’S YOUR BROTHER?!

“I’m in the wrong body.” HAHA! “I think I got asthma...call me back.” TROLOLOL

“Virgin. Frustrated virgin.” Sammy. The way you said that. Oh, shit, this kid is all up into witchcraft.” I LOVE THIS EPISODE, FROM SAM’S POINT OF VIEW, NOT FROM GARY’S. EXCEPT FOR DEAN’S REACTIONS BECAUSE THEY ARE AWESOME.

“Are you smoking drugs?” I can’t even...

Dean, how do you not know this isn’t your brother? Also, it’s kind of funny to see you taller than “Sam.” Aw, fuck. This is really not good.

WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED?! WHY DO THEY HAVE DART GUNS?!

Dean, please...YOU KNOW THIS ISN’T SAM! Dean, you’re pulling Sam’s bitchface out of your back pocket there. Why are you so incredibly stupid right now? Why are they trying to kill Dean? What the hell is going on?

Ugh, those kids are talking to demons and trying to kill Dean. Shit. Also, Nora is on Grey’s Anatomy (spoilers, Liz).

That better not be Dean under those covers. Nah, no way it is. Dean might have been stupid before, but he knows what’s up.

Fuck, I didn’t even think of the complications. I think Lucifer could probably make a case that if Sam’s body says yes to him, he can inhabit it, even if Sam isn’t actually isn’t in the body to say yes.

Trevor is fucking stupid. Sam, in that body, you’re tiny...that’s depress.

Any time anyone says “you get your reward,” I automatically think I’m Jafar and say, “Your eternal reward.” I know, I’m weird. That was pretty cool, though, Dean and Gary exorcising the demon together.

“If you were of voting age, you would be dead. Because we would kill you.” Oh, Dean, bby, I love it when you get all angry. XD

“I totally lied. The kid’s life sucked ass.” Sam, I love you.

I live a Dean Appreciation Life. I live a Sammy Appreciation Life.

Liz Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 12: Swap Meat (SPOILER BLOG)

AHAHAHA this episode is too funny. I love when Jared or Jensen get to play people other than themselves (or weird versions of themselves like demon!Dean or Sam!Lucifer or even crazy!Winchesters like last episodes) so the first couple minutes of this episode are utter perfection to me.

AHH GARY. He is SO HILARIOUS.

Crystal: Gary, I don’t want to embarrass you, but you are just... you are just a stunning looking man.
Gary!Sam: I know, right?

CAN I JUST QUOTE THIS ENTIRE EPISODE OKAY THANKS.

Crystal: So, Gary, you having a good time tonight?
Gary!Sam: Thank you for asking, Crystal, this is like, the best night ever.
Crystal: Do you think we could make it any better?
Gary!Sam: Probably! I don’t know!
Crystal: I mean, do you want to get out of here?
Gary!Sam: Well, I kinda like this bar. And I just ordered this daiquiri!
Crystal: I mean... do you want to get out of here with me?
Gary!Sam: Are we talking about sex?
Crystal: Well, I... yeah, I suppose we are.
Gary!Sam: Crystal. I would love to have the sex with you.

I LITERALLY CANNOT STOP LAUGHING.

That stomach-writing is a horrible thing to have happen to you. If I was a young girl and that happened to me, I would literally never get over it.

Sam/Salad is my OTP. Just sayin’.

Dean: You ever think you want something like that? Wife, rugrats, the whole nine?
Sam: No. Not really my thing anymore.

LIAR. YOU WANT TO MARRY SARAH AND HAVE LITTLE SMART ART HISTORY BABIES. DON’T LIE.

If my child showed up and didn’t know who I was, I would not automatically assume that they were drunk. I would be worried about their sanity and possibly take them to a doctor.

Yes, I have been waiting for the Jared Muscles Mirror Moment. FLEX IT BABY. BRB while I watch it about twenty times and droooooool.

I also love watching Dean interact with people besides Sam. Even though he thinks this is Sam. It kind of reminds me of “It’s A Terrible Life”. Only backwards. My brain is in ten places right now.

I think it’s hilarious that Dean even lets him drive the Impala when he asks. AND THEN HE HURTS HER. DAMN YOU GARY.

Gary: I am really, really sorry.
Dean: SHUT UP.

“One leather jacket, one Sasquatch.” YES YES YES YES.

GARY YOU LITTLE WITCH.

Gary’s Mom: Gary! Breakfast!
Sam: Leave me alone.

I AM DEAD.

“Are you smoking drugs?” Literally this entire episode makes me roll around on the floor laughing.

Suzy Pepper! What are you doing here? I love recognizing guest stars.

Gary: I had a really awesome day, man. Seriously.
Dean: Really awesome day?
Gary: Yeah, why not?
Dean: It was a random D-list ghost hunt. That’s awesome to you?
Gary: I can’t be in a good mood?
Dean: Yeah, I guess. No, actually, that’s not really your style, Sam.
Gary: Well, then, it’s a new me. I mean, come on, why shouldn’t I be happy? I’ve got a gun, I’m getting drunk, and... I look like this. I don’t know... ever feel like your whole future is being decided for you?
Dean: Uh, yeah, Sam. I feel like that a lot.
Gary: No matter how much you fight it, you can’t stop the plan. The stupid, stupid plan. So, I don’t know, it’s just nice to do a little ass-kicking for a change, that’s all.

It’s weird... I feel like this was actually remarkably in character for Sam. Like, I could picture Sam saying all these things. Maybe not as teenager-ish, but the sentiment behind it. Sam is the one who’s always pissed off about “Dad’s plan” and “Azazel’s plan” and “Lucifer’s plan”. Dean is, too, but he buries it and soliders on; Sam always gets angry about it and lets out his man-rage. That being said, Sam isn’t usually calm enough to just sit around and have a drink with Dean. He’s pent up and aggressive and wants to DO THINGS. So yeah. Gary and Sam are similar in really... different ways. If that makes any sense. It probably doesn’t. It’s 3am.

Gary: You’re a good guy, Dean.
Dean: You are drunk.

So funny but so sad. I don’t appreciate being made to laugh and cry at the same time KRIPKE.

Sam: What the hell is going on here? How do you know who Dean is?
Trevor: Everybody knows who Dean is. He’s Hell’s most wanted.

This line makes me feel very sad but also kind of thrilled. I love Dean’s infamy and notoriety. I also love that everyone thinks they can kill him. YOU’RE WRONG BITCHES.

DEAN IS THE MOST BADASS PERSON ON THIS PLANET YOU DO NOT MESS WITH HIM OR TRY TO KILL HIM IN HIS OWN MOTEL ROOM GARY HE WILL TAKE YOUR ASS DOWN.

Witches are whores. This is consistent for six seasons of Supernatural. Thanks to Ruby 1.0 for that line. It’s literally the only positive contribution she made to my existence after she BETRAYED MY ONE TRUE LOVE.

Ugh, demons are the biggest liars. I’m so frustrated. When I was seventeen, I was not this stupid. My friends and I definitely went through our silly occult phase (we actually bought a spellbook and lit candles in Valley Forge National Park) but if anything had ever turned remotely serious or demonic or satanic I would have been OUT OF THERE. Like, screaming and running for the hills, waving my arms above my head, terrified. Seventeen years old is old enough to know that making deals to get love and money is fucking STUPID LIKE WOAH.

Yay, Dean and Gary are exorcising together like BESTIES. They did have a very nice dinner together. Maybe they would be friends if Gary wasn’t FUCKING DUMB.

I love how Sam and Dean have their no-kid rule. Like, the second you turn eighteen, the Winchesters will kill your ass if you put a toe out of line.

I think this episode makes Sam look like more of a tight-ass than he actually is. Yes, he likes salad, but he’s never been that annoyed with Dean’s music before. They actually have that nice Bon Jovi moment in Season 3 that makes me squeal with happiness, and he’s had to put up with Dean’s classic rock obsession for five years now, so I doubt he’d be like, “Ew, Dean! Turn your loud music down, my ears are very delicate!” He’d probably just roll his eyes and deal with it.

THIS EPISODE. It makes me laugh. Friggin’ witches.

Sarah Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 11: Sam, Interrupted

Um, is Sam going to be Angelina Jolie or Winona Ryder?

I hope he’s Angelina, because she’s pretty badass.

I hate when people make people think they’re crazy. Like...schizophrenia is a disease. It makes you do some weird things, but you’re not “crazy.”

Well, shit. There really is a monster, and it got her...and it made it look like she committed suicide. That’s not good.

Oh, dear hyena in Castiel’s pants...they’re trying to get Sam fake-committed. “I don’t have any elephant books.” HAHAHA

Oh...Babar...they’re just telling the truth. BRILLIANT! This is amazing. I love this show. “No, no, his name is Castiel. He wears a trench coat.” YES! They’re both telling the truth to get committed. THIS IS AMAZING I LOVE THIS SHOW THEY ARE PERFECT!

Dean looks so violated.

This is looking up to be a hilarious episode. I just have that feeling. HAHAHAHAHA DEAN AND SAM ARE CODEPENDENT! That is so sad, but true.

Ugh, Ted actually saw the monster. Why is this doctor so crazy? What a weird guy...

I choked on my spit when Doctor Cartwright diagnosed Dean. I love that Dean is just telling the truth. This is amazing. Dean, stop looking so violated.

Oh, shit. Ted is dead...not good. Holy crap, that Q-Tip is going all the way in. How does nobody notice the sound of a bone saw? “PUDDING!” Also, that noise that happened when Dean shouted Pudding? Gross...yet fascinating.

Wraith. How much do you want to bet that it’s the head doctor or that nurse who performed the checks on Sam and Dean. I love that Dr. Cartwright is correctly analyzing Dean. CALLED IT IT’S THE HEAD DOCTOR! But back to Dean...since he’s actually telling the truth for once, someone can actually maybe start to understand.

Sam’s face when Wendy kisses him. “I want him now. He’s larger.” TROLOLOL

Okay, now I can actually focus on Dr. Fuller being the Wraith. He looked scary. I will have terrible nightmares tonight. Oh, great. The silver plating didn’t work. And Sam just attacked everyone. HE KICKED EVERYONE’S ASS! SAM YOU’RE AWESOME! But now you’re on a lot of drugs.

Oh...Sammy. You are awesome. “They gave me everything.” This is awesome. I would quote it all if I could. Jared, you play a fantastic high person. And Jensen is just like...trying to be normal.

“It’s okay, because you’re my brother, and I still love you. BOOP!” YESSSSS BOOP!

UGH DR. CARTWRIGHT ISN’T EVEN REAL, IS SHE?! SHIT THIS IS TERRIFYING! I ACTUALLY LIKED HER! What’s happening to Dean? He’s not actually crazy. Something’s going on with him, but what is it?

Oh, this is sad. Sam, bby, I just want to hug you and love you. It’s Wendy, isn’t it? The girl who kissed them both is making them go crazy. Crap. That’s the only thing I could find in common with them both.

I love it when Dean and Sam are crazy. I mean, I don’t actually, but it’s funny, but I think that every once in a while, having them be all weird is fun.

“Maybe it’s the ghost of my dad.” HILARIOUS! Dean, what are you doing? “I can’t step on the cracks.”

Okay, I really did call this...it being her. Bleh...she did the exams on Sam and Dean. Dean, come on. You can do it, bby.

She’s like Spiderman...but it’s a spike that comes out of her hand, not web. Woah, he ripped off her spike...and then his face afterward. HILARIOUS! “You still crazy?” “Not any more than usual.”

“I’m mad all the time, and I don’t know why!” Ugh, Sammy, me too.

I live a Sam and Dean Appreciation Life. I live a Sam-High-On-Drugs Appreciation Life.

Liz Watches: Supernatural Season 5, Episode 11: Sam, Interrupted (SPOILER BLOG)

The only thing I remember about this episode is the pudding thing. THAT’S LITERALLY IT. I don’t know where my brain was during Season 5 I really don’t.

WHAT IF Season 7 ended with the boys waking up in a mental institution and it turned out the entire series of Supernatural had been some sort of schizophrenic nightmare? I would actually die.

Sam: I’m fine. I mean, okay, a little depressed, I guess.
Doctor: Okay, any idea why?
Sam: Probably because I started the Apocalypse.
Doctor: The Apocalypse.
Sam: Yeah, that’s right.
Doctor: And... you think you started it.
Sam: Well, yeah, I mean I killed this demon, Lillith, and I accidentally freed Lucifer from Hell, so now he’s topside and we’re trying to stop him.
Doctor: Who is?
Sam: Me. Him. And this one angel.
Doctor: Oh, you mean like an angel on your shoulder?
Sam: No, no. His name is Castiel. He wears a trench coat.

I LOVE THIS ENTIRE CONVERSATION. I literally was giggling the entire time. Of course the only time the boys tell the truth...

OH WAIT SHE ISN’T REAL OR SHE’S A DEMON OR SOMETHING WAIT ISN’T THAT RIGHT I FORGET AHHHH WHY CAN’T I REMEMBER ANYTHING.

LOL Jensen can make his eyes blink at different times, I am in awe of this talent.

“To be frank, the relationship that you have with your brother seems dangerously codependent. I think a little time apart will do you both good.” UGH this is too true. It’s not like they have much choice... if they’re apart for more than a few days, all hell breaks loose (LITERALLY) so their codependency isn’t exactly something they can “work on”.

I like that “religious psychosis” has its own category.

DEAN WITH HIS FILM REFERENCES. That’s two so far and we’re only twelve minutes in.

Doctor: How many hours a night do you sleep?
Dean: Three or four, every couple of nights.

JESUS.

Or wait, is she the evil one? I can’t remember. There’s some sort of twist involving one of the female doctors/nurses. Maybe it is her. Somebody talks to Dean about how its not fair that he has to save the world and she turns out to be evil. I think. GAHH.

Oh, I also remember that there’s some sort of placebo effect that makes Sam and Dean think they are actually losing their minds. I find this very interesting.

How are they just strolling around this hospital? WHERE ARE THE NURSES? Obviously Sam and Dean do what they want regardless of how people feel about their mental status.

I hate the sound effects of Sam rooting around in that dude’s brain. I have such a squeamish look on my face right now. Like I am about to throw up.

OH DEAN. He knows how to get out of a tight spot. Also, I would bet about one million dollars that he is not wearing underwear right now.

AHH WAIT NOW I’M SO CONFUSED. I thought it was the doctor because now she’s talking to him about why he has to hunt monsters, but she’s herself in the mirror. By the way, I love the way Dean says, “Nah, you’re clean”. He actually sounds like he’s schizophrenic. I would believe it if I were that doctor.

Doctor: So, is there a quota? How many people do you have to save?
Dean: All of them.

“I want him now. He’s larger.” OH MY GOD.

Like, seriously, are they just really good at evading nurses or what? They should not be able to wander around the ward this freely. They should definitely be like, locked in their rooms or something. This episode makes absolutely zero sense.

“Or you’re seeing things. Maybe, maybe you’re going crazy. [...] Well, come on, you’ve been... at least half crazy for a long time. Since you got back from Hell, or since before that, even, we’re in a mental hospital. HAHAHA, maybe you, maybe you finally cracked. Maybe, maybe now, you’re really... for real... crazy. [...] Okay, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know, I know, it’s okay, hey, hey, look at me. It’s okay. ‘Cause you’re my brother. And I still love you. BOOP.”

I am literally on the floor dying of laughter.

AND now things are sad. Awesome. This show takes me from one extreme to the other in seconds flat. It’s not good for my mental stability. Watching Dean realize that he might be going crazy is making my heart flip over in my chest. I hate when we have to watch Dean’s inner thoughts project themselves outward, because his sense of inadequacy and the guilt he feels over everything makes me sadder than I can ever convey.

NO, do not tell Sam he’s not human, he doesn’t need to hear that. AUGH.

AHHHHH THIS IS GIVING ME BAD FLASHBACKS TO THAT ONE FIC I READ THAT I MENTIONED IN “THE RAPTURE” WHERE SAM AND DEAN WERE ACTUALLY CRAZY OH MY GOD IT’S COMING TRUE NO MAKE IT STOP I CAN’T FEEL THESE FEELINGS AHHHHHH slowly losing all brain functions... this episode is making me want to throw myself off of a building. I am literally being driven mad by this. This. Episode. Is. The. Worst.

Okay. It’s that nurse. I was right the first time. I win. I knew it was her. She’s gross.

“You build your own Hell. But I give you the legos.” This is what every evil thing they meet on the show says. “It’s not my fault, I don’t make you evil, it was in you all along, blah blah blah.” Shut up.

“I am mad... all the time. And I don’t know why!” OH MY JESUS SAM IS HARRY POTTER. Fifth movie, Harry says something like, “I just feel so angry, all the time. What if after everything that I've been through, something's gone wrong inside me? What if I'm becoming bad?” They are the same person. Sam needs someone to tell him that we’ve got light and dark inside of us, but what matters is the part we choose to act on. (GAH SIRIUS NOW I’M DISTRACTED BY POTTER PAIN DAMN IT)

Basically all my fandoms fill me with inexpressible sadness. GAH.